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name } Emily
personal journal } iluvroadrunner6
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character name } Sam Winchester
age } Almost 25
species } Human (with demon blood)
canon } Supernatural
canon point } 418: The Monster at the End of this Book
time & choice } Coming from the future, zapped there by Cas because he is ever so helpful and the Winchesters enjoy being moved around like angelic chess pieces. Immune to the flu because of his demon blood, kinda like Croatoan.

history } History through S5, written by me.

personality }

Sam Winchester is angry.

Anger is the thing that drives him. It’s the only thing he can do with it in the business he’s in, because it’s not something you can really talk about, and that only serves to make him angrier. Granted, Sam has a lot in his life to be angry about—he’s pretty much been a pawn of Lucifer since he was six months old, and his destiny was decided for him before he was even born—but even he admits that it’s a lot more than he rationally should be. He was angry before he even had reason to be angry, and while that could be attributed to the demon blood that’s been in his system since he was six months old, it doesn’t change the fact that it’s there, and Sam can’t escape it, no matter how hard he tries—just like the way that he can’t escape his family.

Sam is also a Winchester, and that comes with a certain amount of stubbornness, angst, and sense of duty. The Winchester family has been hunters since the Mayflower, at least, and the two boys carry that tradition with them as they do their job. While Sam resents a lot of what the job is—the constant moving, no real relationships, a lack of a normal reality—but he knows that the job is important, as well. Sam’s life has constantly had demons involved, ever since his mother’s death, and all Sam’s ever wanted to do is escape that. That involvement, however, is also the thing that pushes him to be as good at his job as he is. He wants to fight against what he thinks the blood makes him, as well as the dark destiny that Azazel consistently implied that he was going to have—and to a point, the demon was right. In the end, Sam is the one responsible for starting the end of the world, but Sam is also the one who saved it. He fought through the losses and the Devil himself, and managed to sacrifice himself to save the world, and that was the redemption that he had been fighting for, for so long.

Sam’s drive for his own redemption doesn’t stop him from feeling the losses. Sam has a huge guilt complex, especially after all the people he’s lost. Starting with his mother, followed by the love of his life, Jessica, Dean, and various other hunters and friends that they’ve met along the way, Sam feels like all of these deaths are his fault, and carries the weight of them every day. He tries to make them proud, but there’s only so much he can do for them, given that they’re dead. Prior to his releasing of Lucifer at the end of Season 4, Sam let the need for revenge fuel him. He wanted to right what he believed was done wrong to them and to him, and he used that to get where he needed to go. That need for revenge, however, is what lead him to making the biggest mistake he could make—trusting Ruby, and letting her use him to release Lucifer—and he’s trying to get himself off that track and frame of mind, and finding a better way to use his anger. It doesn’t change the fact that the anger is still there, but he’s trying to find a more productive use for it.

Dean is the most important person in Sam’s life. Period, end statement. Dean raised him, protected him, and took care of him, and Sam feels more loyalty to his brother than he does to his own father. Despite the fact that Sam spent most of his young adult life running away from his family, Dean was always a pivotal point in Sam’s life, and the one person that Sam would do absolutely anything for. It’s Dean’s death that drives Sam to do most of the regrettable things he does, and Dean is the thing that helps give Sam the strength to conquer Lucifer when they’re wrestling for control inside of Sam’s body at the end of Season 5. Sam would die to protect Dean, and in the Star Wars Universe, that’s not likely to change. In fact, he’ll protect Dean to the point of keeping their future a secret from his brother, despite whatever cost to their relationship it may bring.

An element of that revenge he was looking to serve for his brother, is that it led to Sam’s addiction to demon blood. The blood gave him the power boost he needed to kill demons with his mind, and it’s part of the reason why Sam followed Ruby so easily, even though Dean asked him not to. The drinking wasn’t just about killing Lilith, however, it was also about preparing Sam to be Lucifer’s vessel. Sam needed to consume massive quantities of blood in order to house Lucifer without his body exploding. His addiction is something that Sam struggled with frequently throughout Season 4 and 5 of the show, because not only did Sam appreciate the power boost it gave him, the blood made him feel stronger and better, and even went so far as to change the make-up of his blood itself. That makes Sam a little more than human, as much as he hates to admit it, and that need for power is still present in Sam. He feels that it’s the only way he can isolate and protect himself and his family from getting hurt, even though he knows it’s a dark path to go down.

On top of all that anger and drive, there is a sweet, sensitive kid who only wanted to be a real boy. Sam is definitely the more emotional of the two brothers, and the more introverted. While he’s a pretty confident guy, and a friendly one at that, he’s the one more likely to blush when someone pays him a compliment, or be sheepish when a girl’s flirting with him. He’s the emotional anchor of the two, and the one more likely to get the witness to talk and open up to them when they’re trying to get information on a case. Sam is also a giant nerd. His cell phone is registered Star Wars reference. He’s the one who does most of the research on the jobs, and he enjoys it, especially once he allows himself to accept that this is his life, and he needs to just get used to it.

abilities }

Early in the series, Sam was shown to have what has been affectionately termed “death visions” due to being dosed by demon blood as a baby. This was, in a sense, the gateway power, and if developed (and nurtured with more demon blood) it can expand to the point where Sam can kill demons (the kind that are billowing clouds of smoke and possess other people’s bodies) with his mind. The space in between includes telekinesis, and using that telekinesis to exorcise demons with his mind. Sam abstains from using these abilities, most of the time, because these abilities were the things that brought about the end of the world, but if he needs to, he’ll use them—especially after he’s been drinking demon blood.

Sam is a hunter, and was raised that way. He’s well-versed in hand to hand and weapons training, preferably guns. He knows how to pick most locks and security systems, how to break into a house, how to steal a car, and how to create a fake ID for most forms of law enforcement. He also has hacker skills good enough to hack the FBI database.

And finally, he knows more about the supernatural than any sane person would probably ever want to know.

appearance }

The most physically notable thing about Sam is the fact that he’s tall. He comes to about 6’4” and is pretty filled out due to his demon blood habit lifestyle as a hunter. His nickname is Sasquatch for a reason—and not just because of his height. The next thing you’d probably notice about Sam is his hair—he has a lot of it. It’s so long that it almost reaches his shoulders, and … is probably more of a help than a hindrance, but he doesn’t seem to be cutting it anytime soon. If you happen to catch him shirtless, he has a tattoo just below his left shoulder. Other than that, there are no other distinguishing marks.

He can usually be seen dressed in layers, flannel shirts and jeans, with jackets on top, meant more to protect himself than anything else. He doesn’t wear anything that’s not easy to move in, unless it’s required for a case.

inventory }

Clothes:

1 – Flannel overshirt
1 – solid color t-shirt
1 – medium-weight jacket
1 – pair of jeans
1 – pair of boxer briefs
1 – pair of socks
1 – pair of heavy duty work boots

Belongings:

3 – rock salt buckshots
1 – cloth duffel bag
1 – shot gun
1 – Taurus model 92 9mm
1 – extra clip
A number of demon-specific “don’t look here” hex bags
1 – extra change of clothes
1 – flask with demon blood

third person sample } http://imnot-likeyou.livejournal.com/3933.html