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Out of Character Information
Name: Emily
Username: (if applicable) iluvroadrunner6
Are you over the age of eighteen? Yes
Current characters in Baedal: N/A

In Character Information
Basics
Character Name: Sam Winchester
Username: imnot_likeyou
Fandom: Supernatural
Played By: Jared Padalecki
Icon: http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/106957044/16640291

Canon Character Section
Physical Description: The most physically notable thing about Sam is the fact that he’s tall. He comes to about 6’4” and is pretty filled out due to his demon blood habit lifestyle as a hunter. His nickname is Sasquatch for a reason—and not just because of his height. The next thing you’d probably notice about Sam is his hair—he has a lot of it. It’s so long that it almost reaches his shoulders, and … is probably more of a help than a hindrance, but he doesn’t seem to be cutting it anytime soon. If you happen to catch him shirtless, he has a tattoo just below his left shoulder. Other than that, there are no other distinguishing marks.

He can usually be seen dressed in layers, flannel shirts and jeans, with jackets on top, meant more to protect himself than anything else. He doesn’t wear anything that’s not easy to move in, unless it’s required for a case.

Sexuality: Sam is heterosexual, and almost exclusively monogamous. Unlike his brother, who flirts with everything that moves, Sam needs a connection with someone before the relationship goes anywhere physical. While he does like sex, he likes the relationship end of things more. It’s part of his striving to find something normal in a life that’s decidedly not. Even when it comes to girls like Ruby, who he’s mostly using as an outlet for his own emotional anguish, it took him some time with her to give in to that kind of comfort, and when he’s with her, there’s still an element of tenderness to it. He feels connected to her, and that means something to him.

The reason why Sam is so exclusively monogamous is because he’s still constantly searching for that idea of normal. He wants that one person who he can always be there for, and always be there for him. He wants the house, and the family, and the white picket fence, and he can only get that by finding that one person to connect with on that level. When he does find that person, he’s possessive as a lover, a little rough, and wanting to show that emotion to the person he’s with.

At the moment, however, Sam is a little gunshy when it comes to sex. Ruby used sex as a way to relax Sam and get him to start drinking her blood, and at the moment, his mind still connects the two together, as well as trust issues with what Ruby did to him. He’s going to be hesitant at starting anything with anyone, as he also needs to learn to trust them and himself.

History: Here, written by me

I’ll be taking Sam from about a week into his tenure in Hell, which boils down to about an hour in Real World time. I chose this canon point, because, well—Sam’s in Hell. If there were a place that he’d want to get away from, that would be it. It’s likely that he will think his initial arrival in Baedal is Hell, given the room he can’t get out of, and the fact that he’s in a place he doesn’t recognize, and he shouldn’t be alive. He won’t trust anything that he sees, including his own brother, or anyone else he knows.

Given the fact that it wasn’t just Sam’s soul that went to Hell, but also his body, I think it’s feasible for him to be pulled directly from Hell and placed in Baedal.

Powers: Early in the series, Sam was shown to have what has been affectionately termed “death visions” due to being dosed by demon blood as a baby. This was, in a sense, the gateway power, and if developed (and nurtured with more demon blood) it can expand to the point where Sam can kill demons (the kind that are billowing clouds of smoke and possess other people’s bodies) with his mind. The space in between includes telekinesis, and using that telekinesis to exorcise demons with his mind. Sam abstains from using these abilities, most of the time, because these abilities were the things that brought about the end of the world, but if he needs to, he’ll use them—especially after he’s been drinking demon blood.

Talents/Abilities:: Sam is a hunter, and was raised that way. He’s well-versed in hand to hand and weapons training, preferably guns. He knows how to pick most locks and security systems, how to break into a house, how to steal a car, and how to create a fake ID for most forms of law enforcement. He also has hacker skills good enough to hack the FBI database.

And finally, he knows more about the supernatural than any sane person would probably ever want to know.

Personality: Sam Winchester is angry.

Anger is the thing that drives him. It’s the only thing he can do with it in the business he’s in, because it’s not something you can really talk about, and that only serves to make him angrier. Granted, Sam has a lot in his life to be angry about—he’s pretty much been a pawn of Lucifer since he was six months old, and his destiny was decided for him before he was even born—but even he admits that it’s a lot more than he rationally should be. He was angry before he even had reason to be angry, and while that could be attributed to the demon blood that’s been in his system since he was six months old, it doesn’t change the fact that it’s there, and Sam can’t escape it, no matter how hard he tries—just like the way that he can’t escape his family.

Sam is also a Winchester, and that comes with a certain amount of stubbornness, angst, and sense of duty. The Winchester family has been hunters since the Mayflower, at least, and the two boys carry that tradition with them as they do their job. While Sam resents a lot of what the job is—the constant moving, no real relationships, a lack of a normal reality—but he knows that the job is important, as well. Sam’s life has constantly had demons involved, ever since his mother’s death, and all Sam’s ever wanted to do is escape that. That involvement, however, is also the thing that pushes him to be as good at his job as he is. He wants to fight against what he thinks the blood makes him, as well as the dark destiny that Azazel consistently implied that he was going to have—and to a point, the demon was right. In the end, Sam is the one responsible for starting the end of the world, but Sam is also the one who saved it. He fought through the losses and the Devil himself, and managed to sacrifice himself to save the world, and that was the redemption that he had been fighting for, for so long.

Sam’s drive for his own redemption doesn’t stop him from feeling the losses. Sam has a huge guilt complex, especially after all the people he’s lost. Starting with his mother, followed by the love of his life, Jessica, Dean, and various other hunters and friends that they’ve met along the way, Sam feels like all of these deaths are his fault, and carries the weight of them every day. He tries to make them proud, but there’s only so much he can do for them, given that they’re dead. Prior to his releasing of Lucifer at the end of Season 4, Sam let the need for revenge fuel him. He wanted to right what he believed was done wrong to them and to him, and he used that to get where he needed to go. That need for revenge, however, is what lead him to making the biggest mistake he could make—trusting Ruby, and letting her use him to release Lucifer—and he’s trying to get himself off that track and frame of mind, and finding a better way to use his anger. It doesn’t change the fact that the anger is still there, but he’s trying to find a more productive use for it.

Dean is the most important person in Sam’s life. Period, end statement. Dean raised him, protected him, and took care of him, and Sam feels more loyalty to his brother than he does to his own father. Despite the fact that Sam spent most of his young adult life running away from his family, Dean was always a pivotal point in Sam’s life, and the one person that Sam would do absolutely anything for. It’s Dean’s death that drives Sam to do most of the regrettable things he does, and Dean is the thing that helps give Sam the strength to conquer Lucifer when they’re wrestling for control inside of Sam’s body at the end of Season 5. Sam would die to protect Dean, and in Baedal, that’s not likely to change. In fact, he’ll protect Dean to the point of keeping their future a secret from his brother, despite whatever cost to their relationship it may bring.

An element of that revenge he was looking to serve for his brother, is that it led to Sam’s addiction to demon blood. The blood gave him the power boost he needed to kill demons with his mind, and it’s part of the reason why Sam followed Ruby so easily, even though Dean asked him not to. The drinking wasn’t just about killing Lilith, however, it was also about preparing Sam to be Lucifer’s vessel. Sam needed to consume massive quantities of blood in order to house Lucifer without his body exploding. His addiction is something that Sam struggled with frequently throughout Season 4 and 5 of the show, because not only did Sam appreciate the power boost it gave him, the blood made him feel stronger and better, and even went so far as to change the make-up of his blood itself. That makes Sam a little more than human, as much as he hates to admit it, and that need for power is still present in Sam. He feels that it’s the only way he can isolate and protect himself and his family from getting hurt, even though he knows it’s a dark path to go down.

On top of all that anger and drive, there is a sweet, sensitive kid who only wanted to be a real boy. Sam is definitely the more emotional of the two brothers, and the more introverted. While he’s a pretty confident guy, and a friendly one at that, he’s the one more likely to blush when someone pays him a compliment, or be sheepish when a girl’s flirting with him. He’s the emotional anchor of the two, and the one more likely to get the witness to talk and open up to them when they’re trying to get information on a case. Sam is also a giant nerd. His cell phone is registered Star Wars reference. He’s the one who does most of the research on the jobs, and he enjoys it, especially once he allows himself to accept that this is his life, and he needs to just get used to it.

Object: Sam will be arriving in Baedal with Ruby’s demon killing knife. Useful, as it … kills demons and a lot of other things, but also, it’s a reminder to Sam of his addiction, and where he doesn’t want to go back too.

Reason for playing: I will admit that I didn’t always have a great love for Sam Winchester. He got on my nerves. I was a Dean girl from the get-go and Sam’s constant whining about how all he wanted was a normal life during Season 1 made me wonder why Dean didn’t hit him. Hard.

But as Sam started to come into himself more and stopped being less of a whiny brat, my appreciation for him grew, and by the time we hit Season 4, Sam was right up there with Dean in contention for my favorite character. I am a bit of a sucker for the road to redemption and Sam’s journey down that road, for me, was what made the last few seasons of the show. I picked up and started playing Sam around the beginning of Season 4, and have been playing him ever since, mainly in a little game called paradisa, where I’ve had him for the past two and a half years. I really enjoy playing him and bringing light to his struggles and choices that make him such a different and distinct character from Dean.

It doesn’t help that he’s also super adorable.

Why I want to play him here though, is I wanted to do something different with Sam. Paradisa is an amazing game, and I love it to pieces, but there’s only so much development that can happen in a jamjar magical castle, and that has left me looking for something new. I feel like multiversal could help me delve into the darker side of Sam, allow me to explore aspects of him that I don’t get to do in Paradisa—the castle can be a mostly fluffy place, and a lot of Sam’s issues are dampened by the fact that he arrived in the castle early on in his journey. Here, he’d be arriving straight from Hell, and that will allow me to play with his trust issues, as well as a lot of other aspects of his personality that don’t come up all that often in the castle.

Gods: There are actually a couple options for Sam, here, and I’m going to list them all because—I can’t decide. The first option I can see is Geidron, and that’s probably the most obvious. Sam is a hunter, and while he may not like seeing himself as a soldier, it’s how he was raised, and he fought a war his entire life. More to the point, he died in battle before arriving in Baedal, so if the shoe fits, Geidron will probably want to poke at him from time to time.

Another god that might take an interest in Sam, however is Eliandre. Sam is a hunter, and he tries to get justice, not only for the people that are being attacked by the things that go bump in the night, but also for the things their fighting. It’s usually seen more with the ghosts, but when burning the remains of a ghost hasn’t worked, Sam has helped work to get vengeance for the spirit in question. One example is in 306: Red Sky at Morning, Sam summoned the spirit of the ghost’s brother, the one who had wronged the spirit in the first place, and allowed the spirit to take out it’s rage on the real target.

I think, however, that the most appropriate god to take an interest in Sam is Vell. Vengeance is a trap that Sam falls into multiple times throughout the series, often blindly. Given that he was raised by a vengeful father, spending over twenty years searching for the demon that killed Sam’s mother, as much as Sam hated that life that he was raised in, it’s the first thing he turned to when he lost the love of his life, Jessica. Trying to get even is a theme throughout Sam’s life, first with Jessica, then with Dean and while it didn’t end well for him (or the rest of the world, for that matter), it did allow Sam to find redemption, and was still a necessary part of his life and his growth as a character.

Writing Samples
First-Person Network Post:

[it takes Sam a minute to fight through the panic and figure out how to work the CiD, but once he does, he’s doing his best to get himself some help, because being stuck in the room he’s in? So not cool]

If anyone can hear me? I need help. I’m stuck in this room.

[there’s a half-bitter laugh, but the edge of panic is still there. Someone clearly didn’t see the “DON’T PANIC” scratched on the floor]

I wish I could tell you where I am, but I can’t see anything—there are no windows and the door won’t open. But there’s green tile, and it’s pretty small. If that helps at all.

[there’s another beat, as he slumps against the wall a little more and tries to catch his breath]

Also, if someone could tell me where I am? That would be great. When might help too.

[and one last beat as he sighs]

Thanks.

[and with that, the feed cuts off]

First-Person Journal Post:

Third-Person Arrival Post:

Sam did this because he was doing the right thing.

It was the statement he had to repeat to himself over and over again as Lucifer laid into him, torturing both his mind and his body for what had been inflicted on him. Lucifer was the master of his domain, and he took every opportunity to show that to Sam just that. It had only been a week, and Sam had already felt himself get torn apart more than could be humanly possible. He was doing his best to break him, and Sam honestly couldn’t say that Lucifer wasn’t winning. He could feel himself slowly slipping away with each part of him that was cut away.

Michael was there, with Adam. Neither of them made a move to help him. Not that he could blame them—he was the one who put them there—but each shock of pain only made him more bitter. He was doing this to save them, to save Adam. Maybe in the process he had damned them all, but it was better that the rest of the world was saved. He had hoped that the other archangel would see that. Apparently he was wrong.

The point of the matter was, however, that Sam didn’t want to be in Hell. No sane person did. He had jumped because it was the right thing to do, because it was his mess that he had to fix, but it only made sense that he’d want to escape the pain he was in. There was no rest, no relief, just torture, over and over again until there was nothing left that could even resemble Sam. And when that happened, his eyes closed, his body collapsed, and he wished, for a moment, that he was anywhere else. That he could see his brother again. Anything. And in the end, he would open his eyes, and it would start all over again.

Until the one time it didn’t.

One time, when Sam opened his eyes and looked up at the ceiling, and it’s not Hell—or at least not the Hell he was accustomed to. He was stretched out on a bed, dressed in the clothes he was wearing when he had fallen into the pit, but something was different. Something felt different. For the first time in a week, he didn’t feel intangible or unreal. He felt solid, and whole, and there was something—off.

He drew himself into a sitting position, looking around the room to try and search for any sign of where he was. It wasn’t any kind of room he recognized. There were no windows. No sign of what time was, or what day. When his eyes fell on the door, he pushed to his feet without a second thought, wanting to get out, before the walls started to close in around him. That was the kind of trick that Lucifer would play, and Sam wasn’t in the mood for playing games. He was at the door in two strides, but when his hand landed on the part of the door where the doorknob should be, there was nothing.

Sam was trapped.

“No,” he whispered, his fingers running over the seams of the door as he tried to get it open. “No, no, no, no—” He was not trapped here. He couldn’t be trapped here. His hand raised in a fist, nails digging into his palm as he pounded against the door.

“Hey! Hey! Let me out of here!”

All he could do was hope that someone was listening.

Third-Person Action Post: Sam detoxing off demon blood. Also, Evil!Sam is hunting.

If these aren’t enough, I can provide more.

Misc
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